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WOW!
I just found this, i acctually forgot that i had it. It took me a while to remeber teh passwrod of course that was after i had to reset it lmao.
Looking back at mostly ALL of these entries, i've realized that I changed so much since i started highschool. In agood way of course.
Freshman year i was extremely quiet and was prettymuch afraid to talk to anyone, anyone at all. Sophmore year, i got better i didnt talk that much but when i did, people ended up running away. I made friends with people that i now realize either used me, or that i completly do nt get along with now. The sumer between sophmore year and this year i cut ties with most of those people, and conversation now days include a measly little hey inteh halls. This year I realized that Lifes too short to be as shy as i was, and that People need to not see me as such a bitch, and they need to see me for who i honestly and truly am.
Today, I'm happy with who I am, well happier anyway. I Love the friends I have now Like Jen, Danielle,Sam L, and Sam L, and I miss some of the friends I used to, like Anji and Amanda. No matter how many years go by those chicks will always be responisble for who i end up to be.
I'm no longer quiet on all ocasions, I talk, Including to those i like. Like just last week i sed sumthin tothis kid i like, but we are only friends cause hes talking to someone, And I'm alright with that. I'm learning not to run from people but to charge them and experiences head on, other wise I'll never learn. I no longer only sing infront of my family, I sing all the time and everywhere in school. Every one says I'm the "next american idol" even teh Janitor.
I've learn to like who I am, Including all teh little flaws I have, because they make me who i am. I'm more outgoing, even though my mother still wont let me go out lol.
I guess when people say that highschool can either make or break you their right. I personally never understood it until right now when i thought about it. If you ask me Highschool Made me, or Made me realize who i was. In teh beginning i thought that it would break me but all i needed to realize was that if i hung tough, and stood out throught the storm, that in the end it would be for the better.
I know that next year I'll be a senior and that it will be teh last tiem I'll see some of the people. If all goes teh way I plan, I'll end up at a music school. If not I'll hope for the best. Either way i hope that for all the people that i leave behind, people that used to always put me in teh corner of their minds. TO the people that i was just another face in teh crowd, I hope that at some point next year, i make a differnce to you. THat perhaps at one point i touch your heart in one way or another, in a way that makes you remeber me forever. I hope this because I know that one day hopefully, I'll be on a stage somewhere singing and every word i sing will remind me of everyone.
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Your inner soul is calling for help! You always
seem so depressed, lonely, and feel like an
outsider. You may have a cold, sad exterior,
but in all reality you are hurt inside and
bottling up all of your anger. Everyday you
wonder why are you still here when there is
nothing left? You use to once be a happy,
loving soul, but it was damaged by 'them' and
seems like it never can be fixed again.
However, you have yet seemed to realize that
there are people out there that deeply care for
you. They secretly have a thing for you because
they find you to be dark, mysterious, and full
of secrets, not to mention being the prettiest
person in the world! You like to enjoy your
time by yourself expressing your feelings
through forms of art, and enjoy nice quiet
scenaries that just dazzle your mind with awe.
Your bedroom is basically your sanctuary where
you can hide out, hidden from those who gave
you all of the pain. Try to loosen up and have
some fun! Never start frowning because you
never know who's falling in love with your
smile :)
What Is Your Inner Soul Trying To Say? (With Pics, See All Results!)
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^that quiz came out so tru minus the whoole pretty part
In your eyes, people see shards of ice
everywhere... You are cold and distant, pushing
away people that love you and truely care for
you! You want to be able to reach out and love
them but... You can't for some reason... You're
just too.... You :P Underneath that cold
exterior lies a warm, happy soul that wants to
let loose and have fun! Your sanctuary would
probably be anywhere up high where you can look
down on life below you, like the roof of an
apartment building... Your eyes resemble a
saddened, crestfallen person seeking out
attention, but doesn't know how to handle it.
However, you do find comfort from your friends,
they're always there for you, and they know the
REAL you :) Even though you do seem rather
cold, you can be very protective over something
you truely believe in or love. Let go of that
"tough" rep and just be you! It's
impossible to live life without some fun and
love ^-^
What Lies Behind Your Eyes? (With Pics, See All Results!)
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^holy shit people u may not believe it but that last result was really like me holy shit im in shock a quiz was acctually right *gulp*
When you are depressed, you are completely
depressed. You feel alone and isolated, and
maybe like you can't relate to anyone. The
world doesn't affect you because you have no
oppinion of it. You're in a dangerous state.
As far as your personality goes, you're probably
the type seen staring into space, maybe deep in
thought or completely lacking thought. You are
very serious about the things you do and say,
unless you try to hide your true state. If this
is the case, you are perhaps hyper and
non-commital.
How Deep is your Depression?
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the sad teen. Everything in life is f*ckin'
miserable. You constantly look over your
shoulder and wonder who is judging you...even
when you are alone. So naturally, you have
become a little paranoid and pessamistic. Your
personality can be one demensional but
confusing. You are constantly bored with life
and wish that something could spice it up. You
have a unique view on life and have identified
the problems with school society (Ex...what
makes popular people, how the student mind
works...) You would rather be alone because you
hate being hurt. You tend to think that no one
understands you, not even your parents /
guardians / friends. But that is just the
opposite! The people who love you want to
help, but they don't know how because they have
a feeling that they will say something wrong
and turn you away. You have to let them know
that you are willing to hear what they have to
say...and it might do some good to listen to
them. Some fields you might consider going
in when you are older...Judge, author,
songwriter, producer, therapist, psychologist,
philosopher, or forensic scientist. You need a
job where you can express yourself and your
views on life. Or you need a field where you
can judge others and predict what is going on
in others life. Either way... you have the
personality to get you a good job that will
support you throughout life.
What type of teenager are you?
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~*~*~*~*~UNIQUE~*~*~*~*~
You are different. You're the type of person that
is easily spotted in a crowd. You have a
radiant personality. You probably go through a
lot of mood swings from happy to lonely, angry
to sad, loving to spiteful, and so on. Be aware
that your sudden change in personality may
offend some people. People like to be around
you because you are genuine and relaxed. You
seem at peace with yourself and you give off
that "what you see is what you get"
vibe. That's a good thing because your general
audience will feel relaxed and at ease knowing
that they too can be themselves with out having
to worry. Try not to judge others on their
appearance. It's not nice. Over all you're a
spirited person who enjoys having a good time!
Good for you! :o)
Please Rate or message me! Thank you for taking my
quiz! XoXo <3 Lana
You're Beautiful...but why? ( PICS)
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You are a Hip hop Dancer. You are the witty chick
in the gang, you have a special life style and
that makes you different with your own unique
way, your friends love you because they know
they can trust you. Your ideal man is the guy
with a free style not afraid of saying how he
feels, and life is never dull with him.
What kind of dancers are you? (Girls only)
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You are a dark girl. You have a really quiet and
really a i dont' care attitude. You like to be
alone and that is what you enjoy. You don't
like to be around others and you'd rather be
away from here. You have a get away from me
look and others find you bitchy and
self-rigious. You'd rather read than be at a
fair but that's ok because that's who you are.
Who are you inside????? (LOTS OF RESULTS)girls only
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You are most like Raven. Quiet and usually soft
spoken, you don't like crowds and can be
slightly gothic. You try to repress your
emotions for one reason or another but one of
your most powerful emotions is your anger. Your
temper sometimes gets the best of you and when
that happens those in your way would wish they
weren't. You seem somewhat creepy to others and
you earn a few odd stares but who cares? You
aren't an outdoors person and avoid venturing
outside when you can. You are generally the
smart one and maybe not by trying to, the most
cynical and sarcastic of the bunch which can be
good or bad. You don't like anyone invading
your privacy and you don't seem to be all that
social. But for what it's worth you can be
quite handy in a tough situation. You are drawn
to the darkness or night most of the time. You
appear mysterious and/or potentially dangerous
at times and not everyone trusts you right
away.
Which Teen Titans Character Are You?
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you represent the dreams in life. you are laid back
and also dream alot.
What part of life do you represent? ( AWESOME anime pics ^_^)
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You are a spring. You are very mellow most of the
time except for the caffine season (which is
year round) but you are also a very nice
person. When people tick you off though God
better save them. lol You are a fairly
socialable person because people know you won't
get mad too easy or seem to. But you are a very
nice peron over all. ^-^
What Season Best Fits You? (anime pics)
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[08 Feb 2005|09:58pm] |
Take the quiz: "What Kinda Kiss R U?"
Goodbye Kiss
The kiss where you know where he/she is coming back for more.
Take the quiz: "What Kind of Music Are You? :::pics:::"
Metal
You're about as hardcore as they come. Music is your passion and you listen to it for talent not because it's popular. You probably have a lot of respect for all artforms and you like classical piano. Slipknot definitely sucks in your eyes...and for good reason. Any band who takes the time to put on make-up and masks just isn't worth your respect.
Take the quiz: "-What Band are you!?"
You are Slipknot!
Your life is heavy metal! YOU JUST DONT GIVE A SHIT! And thats the attitude you have about life!
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hey people whats up nothing here quit bored Kasey is shore she likes (ims call his vinny) vinny she's shore she likes vinny so carl is well hurt......her gav her the concert ticket and her other stuff back adn reacted how i probably would.....tisk tisk so sad but yes glad no one knows what im talking about
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You are Sally! You are the voice of reason, but it
seems nobody listens. You try and save the day
but end up getting saved. Hey, at least you
Jack right?
Which Nightmare Before Christmas Character are you?
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even though my nickname zero sally also kiks ass lol hmm tuesday was laurensbirthday i stayed after skewl with her till 330 migel got her teh cutes gift lol pedro got her flowers yeah then yesterday we had her family party kevin kyle adn sara came me adn kevin were talking bout how ashleys going to the slipknot concernt in march adn how i wanna go lol i had to try adn discribe ashley to kevin to see if he seen her then....hmm lets see im going to substatut nams so no one know i like carl (lol carl a funni name) but carl likes Kasy(memebr these arnt there real names) adn no one knows i like carl...infact i didnt like carl till i started talking to him infact i never thought i would like carl but i guess i do but o well im destined to be alone cursed by my past :[ o well ill live....lets see i havent writtin in here for a while so i must catch up ......oh yes today i typed out all my sons i wrote so i could read them to people so i wouldnt hav trouble with my own writing lol and in my process rachel called and wanted to go to walmart i was like oky so we went wen we got out of the car there was this spanish guy on his cell phone adn he just hit send adn screamed into the phone HULLO rachel was like there was no neeed for him toyell it was funny..........we went on a quest for sweat pants i founded some there so nice lol and i only paid 5 dollars there were a lot more so ima hav to go back i got pens too yaya loli think that was it though oh yeah adn rachel bought air freshners adn gave me one for my locker good now it wont smell like stinky mental lol well thats bout it oh wait i lied i talked to elyse on the phone she is like one of my best fiends so i have 2 nowyaya ashley adn elyse....cool hmm well thats it cept i hate footbal adn the superbowl is over adn if i dont say thhis ill gt my ass kiked so
HELL FUKEN YEAH THE PATS WON WOOOOOOOH
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hullo people whats up i havnt been on for a long while due to the fact that my computer got mest up adn well sucked so we sent it away adn now its back adn sooo much better but yeah thats it reall laterdaze
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hullo peoples wuzz up dawgs lmao woo i crack myself up well lets seen i havent updated in a long while so now seems like a good time......on sunday i slept over ashleys house we watched donny darko and sumthin else i dont memebrthen her sister said she was perfect and junk but yeah then monday we went to play in the snow with michelle , kyle this kid mike adn these two other kids i left after being there for 30 mins cuz i was wearing low top chucks in teh snow and my feet froze it hurt so bad but at the same time tehy were numb hmm then tuesday i went to skewl adn had a midterm it was mainly midterms all wekk bleh yesterday elyse was on line always cool to talk with her....i went in a chat with her adn her friend seth he seemed cool then i talked to zah he a cool kid...hmmmm then its today adn i got a new cell phone its verison woot and it is a camra a video camra adn i can record my own ring tones nice huh ? well yeah if i gave u my cell number before let me know so i can giv u my new one
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[11 Jan 2005|11:38pm] |
oky first of incase u didnt notice FRANK IS BACK WOOOOT GO FRANK...secondly skewl has one word SUCKS lol hmmp today was much like the rest of my days i wrote lyrics adn helped ashley with putting her words into lyrics then teh bus it fuken SUCKS adn i hate it but luckly scotts assholeness has gone down a bit so he picked me up at the bus stop...then i started a new project in skewl Yea i know i went backwards but its okyday.......hmmm i got gatorade....adn a milkshake im bored i need to pee adn im tired yet not tired lol
i dont know but i think i need to go because i do hav skewl tomorrow and i need to take a shower but its snowing for those of u who can see it it is and im praying there is no skewl tomorrow because well i just dont want to go and it might be to ice i hope so welll im out latordaze peapods
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[07 Jan 2005|11:31pm] |
A - Accent: Boston
B - Breast size: 36 c
C - Chore you hate: picking up after the dogs yuckyness
D - Dad's name: ronnie
E - Essential make-up item: chapstick adn maybe eyeliner
F - Favorite perfume/oil scent: Sweet pea/cool water/ love spell
G - Gold or silver: silver
H - Hometown: Revere
I - Insomnia: yuppers
J - Job title: aint gut one
K - Kids: cute yett annoying
L - Living arrangements: mom step dad sister, two cuzens, two dogs, two cats.
M - Mum's birthplace: revere
N - Number of apples you've eaten: i dunno
O - Overnight hospital stays: never
P - Phobia: planes and dark
R - Religious affiliation: christian i think
S - Siblings: 1 sister 1 brother
T - Time you wake up: weekdays am adn weekends 2 pm
U - Unnatural hair colors you've worn:redish purple, red, purple, black with pruple streaks,brown with 2 red peices
V - Vegetable you refuse to eat: all
W - Worst habit: not wanting to go to sleep
X - X-rays you've had: lungs
Y - Yummy foods you make: french tothe mutha fuken toast
Z - Zodiac sign: Gemini
Both!Yes you are an emo kid and a punk.You like
both types of music and you dont care what
people think.Music is something you love!And
you dress how you want.Your just like me,wanna
be friends?lol.
Are you an emo or a punk?
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You're the most like CYRUS! You're sorta quiet and
reserved. You like doing things independently,
but it's still fun to hang out with a small
group now and then!
Which New Found Glory guy are you the most like?
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Air. You think before you act, you look before you
leap. You are very direct, which sometimes can
hurt others. You are always looking for the
truth behind things. Of all the elements,
you're the wisest.
What is your element?
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Love is like a curse to you. You can't live with it
and can't live without it. It makes you crazy.
You think of love as a dungeon. Your locked
into it for eternity and no one has or ever had
a key. And all you wanna do is get out. Don't
dread love, for it IS the key.
What does love mean to you?
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[07 Jan 2005|11:12pm] |
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hey all i havent really writtin in here latly just quiz results and im sure ur gettin annoyed by that but im sorry hmmm lets see went back to skewl on monday dna i dreaded it then on tuesday i had a asthma attack on my way to the bus stop adn my mom had to get me adn walk me home so i didnt go to skewl that day i went home adn just tried to breathe...wendsness day i had gym adn found out i acctually got a 74 in chem on my last test i was like woot woot boo yeah lol then hmm thursday there was no school so i fuken slept woot lol i dont sleep much latly i mean i used to not sleep much but now i am sleeping less than before....... oh yeah and thursday i did my whole english project teh best part of it was teh last aragraph cuz we basically had to make the whole thing up bout what we thought our future would be like adn it actually came out really good..then i stayed up till 3 30 writing more songs i thinki wrote my est yet its called im sorry and its really good....hmm what else oh yeah today i woke up adn got ready for school tehn me adn lau walked to the bus stop the bus was late but in our hand book if you wait 30 mins at teh bus stop adn it still doesnt come u can go home so i did i waited 30 mins adn when that last min came i was out of ther my hands were numb and i was crying because my hands hurt so bad....but lauren didnt leave she was determined to yell at the bus driver and stuff cuz i guess she had a swim meet adn what not so any ways me and joe left and i went home adn i told my mom she called the school adn ineasy things ill just say i didnt go to skewl cuz i had no other ride to skewl so i cleaned my room , downloaded some sons and wrote some too .. butim pissed cuz i have enough lyrics to make 16 songs but i have no tempo or beat to them cuz i dont know how to play guitar but when i think bout it i can humm a toon to the words but i hav no instrament to play along with it so i need to start teaching myself how to play so im saving my money for the guitar for dummies book lol well i think thats it really hummm yeah thats it
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well today was back to teh hall ways of hell #2i call it hell #2 cuz my house is hell anyway it was bak to teh hallways to hell#2 and it sucked giant monkey nuts (hehe)anyway yeah then i dont know o yeahi drew this fuken kik ass picture of a heart adn rose going threw it and guess what i didtn trace it it was free hand see i got the idea a while ago but just couldt put it together so i searched on google for it and i found it so i sat at my computer (in skewl) and i started drawing but mine looks way difffernt but its still cool well yeah here are more quizes (they comfort me lol )
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hey all im bored i went to ashleys today it was the funniest thing in the world we were in teh kitchen and i got my drink adn we were bout to go into her room to finish watching resident evil when i walked straight into the wall adn my soda wnet every where form teh wall to the floor to my shirt i was laughing so fuken hard ashley laughed so hard she cryed then after resident evil we watched dane cook adn thats too fuken funny u hav to get that dvd adn watch it that mutha fuka is funny as hell...hmm what else we made cookies and ate adn laughd mainly oh yeah her cat hate the wire to her subwoofer (spell check) she is pissed but she gunna hav anthony fix in on saturday yay hmm then i came home and i watched the oc it sucked then i listend to music adn wet online i wrote another story for elyse then i went on myspace adn changed my profile again cuz wel im never saticfied oky oh yeha tehn i stole this quiz thingy from merissa and if i spelt ur nae wrong sorry im tired adn cant see well llol laterdaze byebyebye
I:Your Beauty lies
in Sadness. Lonely, depressed and feeling broken.
For whatever reason, you see
this world only for the bad that it holds carrying
the burdens of yourself and
others. Some people like to be with you and your
unique vantage point when they
are down, you are someone who can sympathize with
them. But you find yourself
alone again when they seem to find a solution and
are happy again, yet you still
are stuck in this rut. Do not worry, you will make
it out at some time. Everyone
does, if you try. When you are seen all others want
to do is make your pain go
away, but that is something only you can do. You
probably keep to yourself a lot
and don't like to let people in, afraid to be hurt
again. You feel empty and
helpless and your looks reflect that, often seen
with tears in your eyes.</font>
Some Things
That Represent You:
Element:
Dark, Earth Animal: Robin Color:
Grays, Blacks, Dark
Colors Song: Tourniquet by Evanescence
Expression:
Tearful Frown
Gemstone:
Aquamarine Mythological Creature: Spirit,
Gargoyle Planet: Mercury Hair
Color: Blue-Black Eye Color:
Gray
Quote:
"Am I too lost to be saved?"
Where Does Your Beauty Lie? ..::Original Pictures Are Back! Detailed Results::..
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Take the quiz: "Which Ginger Snaps character are you?"
Ginger Fitzgerald
You're obsessed with death and suicide. You're an outcast, different to the others, but inside you have a craving desire to belong. You're dead sexy and you know how to flaunt
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 | You scored as Hardcore. Hardcore.
Hardcore | | 79% | Emo & More | | 67% | Classic Rock. | | 63% | Punk and Pop Punk. | | 63% | Indie | | 54% | Indie Rock | | 42% | Industrial | | 42% | Ska | | 29% | Britpop | | 21% | Mainstream | | 21% | Country | | 13% | Hip Hop and Rap | | 4% | </td>
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[24 Dec 2004|05:36pm] |
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well its christmas eve and im bored im waiting for my family to get ehre and for the chinese food to come yay chinese food i havent had that in like a year im happy lol i just got off the phone with ashley i wished them all a merry christmas and they did the same oh yeah did i tell you guys ashlye got me a blue and yello pig its like one of those pretty soft feeling stuffed piggys its awsome and i got her belly button rings and earings lol she got me this cool card but i for gotted what it sed i was disappointed cuz alicia and michelle wornt in skewl thursday so i didnt get to giv thenm their gifts man grrr but i gave kendra hers she was like ill get u sumthing wen i get money i was like kendra i dont care i really dont so yeah that was then and today i dont know but ill go on later tomorrow to let you go what i got christmas day but i needa go now cuz family is coming yeah laterdaze
happy holidays people
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bleh bleh bleh i am bored i had to go shopping with my mom and cuzen grrri ditched for alil and then i talked wit seany k , sean, felisha and then adam lol bleh im bord lol i havr breakfast eith santa tomorrow there had better be people i know there so i have some one to talk with i mean u cant really make me stay there and chill with lil 6 year olds from 7:30 to 1 i mean ahh no i did that last year thanx bleh i had to paint faces lol thay make u wear a hat either santa of elf umm i aint wearing it get ova it dude but now i hav to sleep cuz i needa get up early dude so yeah ill talk to you people latersi mean i cant thinkof nething else to write cept i wrote a song beat and all lyrics and shyt and i tryed to change my icon for livejournal and thats all i got so bleh bleh bleh and if u dont like it go fuk urself dude
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